what lack of good sleep will do to your blog post

It was past 12 AM already and I still couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned and finally after 2 hours, I had my slumber. It was unusual for me to experience an insomnia episode, but I might have a clue as to why it happened. I was afraid.

Not the kind I'm-scared-of-the-dark afraid. My being afraid stemmed from my current ability to solve GMAT questions. Do you want to know my average grade? Most sections fall in par, and some below par. I seriously don't think I will ever get the grade which most business schools require with my brain right now. I need a good upgrade.

Or just ditch those majors with GMAT requirements altogether. I'd just do my TOEFL test and send the result to any course who'll happily accept me. Easy, right? But that wouldn't be different from what I did after graduating high-school. I was too lazy to work on my (hm.. how do you translate SPMB/UMPTN?) undergrad national acceptance test. Hence I took an easy alternative to get into my dream-come-true college.

I have nothing to lose right now, but I feel the contrary. This is probably my anxiety and insecurity self writing this post, and my bright and optimistic self is somewhere lurking inside my head. You can see by how messy this post is. It's not a good material but I still intend to post it just so this blog isn't going to be spammed by anyone who has nothing better to do.