January 18, 2007

i have to stay away, i'm causing too much pain

Yesterday I went to Jakarta with my J-town friends and as I gazed out through the window something existed again in my chest..

It was the longing for home.

I have always loved Bandung as my hometown. But for the past eleven months somehow I managed to convince myself that Jakarta would be another home to me. Thus, there hadn't been any sense of loss everytime I went there.

And just yesterday - as Monday's incident creeping on my mind - I had to stop myself from crying as realization hit. I now feel homeless here..

..because I just lost the only person who makes me feels like home everywhere he goes.

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