one day you're gonna meet a guy who's gonna make you want to look like a complete idiot

Popularity.

Is not a thing I'm gifted with. Nor charm. Nor eloquence. But I always have my clique or close-knit friends. For me that has been always enough. Plus, I'm the type of person who doesn't want to be a majority.

I see now that it's kind of sad.

I see friends from elementary, junior high and senior high still..I don't know, what's the word?.. bonding? And I feel like being the most worst friend of the planet. And feeling alone, too. And feeling like blaming the way I was grown at home.

I (still) can't go out a lot. Parents never gave out advices on how to make great conversations. I was mostly taught to be independent, and thinking that too much 'pergaulan' could make me gone wrong. Even Dad still asks, "What benefit do you get by hanging out with friends?"

D-uh, D-ad..

Eniwei, I think it has also a side effect on my love life. Little scope of friends means little scope for potential partners. Right? ;D

Yea, so, I made a promise to myself to be more active socially. So the future me won't be as sad and 'kuper' as the current one. ;)