i want to be a cool mom

I used to think I am a good writer. But after reading through some blogs my friends write, I don't think I am anymore. I write mostly about myself, not about some knowledge that I know of nor something that would give benefit to my readers. I can excuse myself by saying, "Hey, this is my blog. I do what I want to do here." but no. Let me just admit it: I suck at writing a useful blog for other people. So I'll write a useful blog for myself instead.

Heh.

Let's continue.

Today I acted like a total pushover to my bestfriend. I wanted him to go to the annual job fair which is held near our campus. I also wanted him to look for a new job that would give a bigger salary and better experience. I personally believe that he would make a damn-good employee, hence the pushover. But nah-uh, he didn't feel like it. So I asked if he opted to stay here and not getting a new job at all for the time being.

And what do you know?

He told me to bug off - because he didn't have a plan. Yet. (Well, he'd better...) And he didn't want to talk about it.

I was furious. If we were having this conversation face-to-face, I swear I would choke him to (near) death. Here I was, trying to help him see what he wanted out of his life and he tried swat me off like a fly. After that, a cold war ensued...

...for not very long. We made up at this cool Balinese show in campus and we talked about it on the way home. He was..hmm.. well, let's say he'd seemed to be taking it easy while I'd gotten it all worked up.

*but hey, come on, not having a plan isn't something to be taken lightly... just my opinion tho'*

On my own way home, I contemplated a little further. Was I a control freak? Didn't I look like my dad a bit when I freaked out like that? Oh my God, what if I end up being a control freak mother to my children, the one who always nags and can't cut them some needed slack? Well I don't wanna do that my children, so might as well I should learn not to do it to my friends, right?

But really, no life plan at all? Pffftt. You must be really confident, buddy.